Almost the whole poem is questions. The speaker begins with big, abstract ones about the purpose of life, whether we control it, and why it can't be simpler. Then the questions turn personal and darker. By the middle, the speaker is asking someone to end their life, and later says "Kill me, please?" outright.
The speaker seems exhausted and stuck. They describe their life as a "shit hole" and wonder if it can get worse, which sounds more like despair than curiosity. The question about telling someone "You're my everything" suggests a fear of reaching out and being rejected or hurt again.
The mood is raw, anxious, and heavy. Because nothing is answered, the poem feels like a spiral, with the same pain circling back. The last line leaves a small, fragile opening: the speaker says that with an answer, "maybe I'll know." That hints at a wish for someone to respond, even amid hopelessness.