low — Summary

How do you feel today? Angry, confused, sad, scared, vacant, weak, empty and so alone

Why do you feel like that? I wish I knew but I don’t

What do you want to do about it? Kick, scream and cry out or Shrink into a corner, Disappear and cry, Rock myself slowly, Lay on my arms, To hide from those who know me Close my eyes and make everything go dark, Cover my ears to get rid of the noise Surround myself with the ones i love

Does this help? No, nothing helps The darkness is endless The noise never stops I both want and don’t want to be alone I want to stay in my mums arms (they feel safe) Everyone can see the mess I've become Everyone stares or asks me what’s wrong

Can you tell them? I wish I could but... I don’t know where to start: The words get stuck in my throat There’s a heavy fog in my head, There’s tap over my mouth, I can’t talk, I can’t breathe I can only cry

Is there someone who’s there for you? Yes, there is They holds me, tells me it’s alright, That they’re there for me, they doesn’t ask me to talk to them, But listens if I do, they're embrace feels committable, warm and safe It's like they knows what I need Or they makes me laugh instead to distract from the pain

Who are they? My best friends, my sisters and my mum

And I want to thank them for it

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Katie Foster's "low" is built like a conversation, with a gentle voice asking questions and the speaker answering as honestly as she can. She feels angry, scared, empty and alone, and she can't explain why. That honesty is what makes the poem hit hard: she doesn't pretend to understand her own pain.

The speaker's wishes pull in opposite directions. She wants to scream, hide, disappear, and also be surrounded by people she loves. She says she both wants and doesn't want to be alone. Images like a fog in her head and tape over her mouth show how hard it is to speak when words get stuck. The mood is heavy and claustrophobic for most of the poem. Then it softens. The people close to her don't force her to talk; they hold her, listen, or make her laugh. The poem ends with simple thanks, leaving a small but real feeling of warmth and hope.

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