Me and my Merry Men — Summary

LauraAnxious

Sometimes i feel like my walls are crumbling from the inside out Sometimes i break and the tiny merry men inside of me scurry about Fixing the gaping hole before anyone sees Some days my merry men fix the hole before it's too big But sometimes my merry men forget and the hole inside of me it rises to the surface shrieking and tearing at my outsides revealing my mauled insides people don't know what to think but my merry men realise their mistake they run carrying the bricks and foundations to fix me bricks on self-preservation foundations of protection and the hole that reveals my despairing, withering insides is gone closed to the world so no one can see who i truly am and how i feel

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Laura describes a private struggle to keep her pain out of sight. She imagines herself as a building whose walls are crumbling from within, with tiny "merry men" living inside her who rush to patch the damage. The name suggests a playful, almost cheerful band of helpers, which makes the situation feel both childlike and sad.

Most days the repairs work. Sometimes they come too late, and the hurt breaks through, "shrieking and tearing" at her surface so that others can see it. The images here are violent and raw, and people around her don't know how to react. Then the merry men rebuild, using "self-preservation" and "protection" as their materials. The wall closes up, but the cost is clear in the last lines: no one sees who she really is or how she feels. The mood is tense and lonely, and the protection that saves her also keeps her shut away.

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