I Don't Kiss 'goodbye'
I walked away and haven't said a thing They told me it's for the best To keep quiet. I knew i wouldn't make myself happy If I'd make you sad Cause that was never my intention. You should've seen me talk about you... I glowed so bright I could illuminate a whole boulevard At night. If only you saw... But this is not about it. This is about what I can't say to your face. It's been some time since we talked my mornings start with "fuck, another day" and coffee And end with me in tears, so late at night. I don't eat, i rarely talk To be honest I'm pretty walking dead Today i reached the point where i don't feel Any pain The tears roll on my cheeks on their own Because it hurt so much, It's impossible to hold it. I stopped going out, started lacking sleep There are nights where i don't get any Just because i fear seeing you In my dreams... I miss your voice. Only writing this made me cry... I miss you so much my heart aches But you... You don't miss me. And that's a pill harder to swallow. Acceptance... Never been my friend. I never left like this... No argument, No closure, no kiss No "why?" We've got questions but not answers. You haven't picked up your phone Oh wait, i haven't called. You haven't bothered either So what do we do now? I'm tired, my love. I would've taken a bullet for you But now, I don't even want that. To be honest, i never believed its possible To love someone too much... Well maybe, This was Too much.