it's not your fault lindo
that i flinch every time you suddenly turn around
or that my hands shake every time i try to touch your face
or that i sob brokenly every time i can't bring myself to do it.
it's mine.
i'm just such a fucking mess who's stuck in the past and
i'm sorry you have to deal with that.
i terrify
myself
but there is no escape
You leech.
You latch into me , drain me of. my happiness . And it only takes one second for me to fall victim to your words , to your drug.
You liar.
You lie to me . It's a viscious cycle. You say it's gonna be okay , and you pull the world from under me. And show me a list of things of why it's not , in fact , going to be 'okay' You anchor .
You tie me down. I don't go places . I don't hang out with friends . I stay home , I sleep. And even though I don't hang out with my friends , doesn't mean you don't make me hang out with yours. Anxiety and fear are your besties. And you always invite them to the party.
You pain.
The feel of the air getting intense,
The sight of a funnel was astonishing,
Watching the funnel increase in size was terrifying,
I could feel the wind getting faster and faster,
I heard the sirens for tornados start up and get louder,
the wind felt as if I was waking side by side with a moving train,
as I got to safety,
I heard a sound as if something was just flinging thugs around,
I could feel the winds just above me,
I could hear the roaring wind,
I was watching the roof over my basement start to sink in towards us,
and then as we sat we no longer heard the roaring winds and no longer was our basement roof caving in,
a sign that it was now over,
Reason,
Why I kissed you
Because Im scared that you leave me
Reason,
I hold your hand
Is because I'm scared to loose you
Reason,
I hug you close
Is because I'm scared you replace me
Reason,
I call for you
Is because I'm scared you'll never look at me
Reason,
I cry for you,
Is because I'm scared you'll never love me.
Today is a special day for you
What fun things you're going to do
Festivities and cake
Oh, the meals and friends you'll make...
But for me, it's just a Tuesday.
This day's the day your world opened
And you're praising yourself for not having broken
But you don't really see
What this all means to me
'Cause it's just a Tuesday.
It's supposed to be special
It's supposed to be alright
But I'm feeling stressful
And you're glowing too bright
Because today has lost its shine
And I'm losing my mind
It seems today
That the world is run by difference
Things that set us apart
Are both beloved and scandalized
It makes one wonder
Why exactly that is the case
A fear of the unknown, perhaps?
Or even worse, of change?
Deep down inside
We are all the same, no?
What does it matter how you are
In comparison to your fellow person
Or are we?
One could argue that
Every person is unique
In their own special way
I am reliable,
I am strong.
I'm Mr. Go-getter!
I'm never wrong!
I'm a jokester.
Lifting you high,
I'm here for you;
So don't you cry.
Don't worry about me;
I'll be alright.
So long as you're doing ok,
I'll be fine.
I'm so relatable;
I see your side,
I'll be your example,
Fill you with pride!
Maybe I'm afraid so I would not see,
The dusk-colored sight you gazed for me to see.
Maybe I'm afraid so I would not see,
Your half-twitched smile though it's plain to see.
Ah, pretensions! when will you learn to be gentle?
The eyes never had the same sparkle....Maybe I'm afraid so I would not feel,
The icy-cold touch you reach for me to feel.
Maybe I'm afraid so I would not feel,
The freezing wintry kiss you gave but I feel.
Sentimental songs need not care whose heart it gonna break.
So I'll carry the hurt for as long as it takes!
Do it
Says my mind
Nothing bad can happen
But my heart closes
Afraid of being hurt again
There she sits
Late at night
The paper her canvas
The words her colour
She's good with words
Written not spoken
But not today
Today she lacks the words
The feelings too overwhelming
She realizes she might start falling
Falling for him
Is it worth it
Fear
Hurting
Waiting
Feeling
The clouds roll by,
She feels like she is falling,
Farther,
Faster,
Freely,
Falling,
Time keeps moving,
She feels lost,
No way out,
No one to help her,
No end,
Lost,
The seasons change in a blur behind her,
She feels like her life is slipping away,
Fast,
Fading,