I stood up
Bold and brave
For myself
Copying others' ways
I followed suit
To fit in more
I just wanted friends
Not a heart sore
I was stood up
On multiple days
Left alone
In this haze
I feel so lonely
Deep inside
Not the surface
Other's wont find
The day I got close enough to see the minute iridescent freckles across your face
was the day that I discovered my new favourite place.
A spot right in front of you,
a world built for two.
But what happens when the world wasn't built for you,
but instead was built for people who, when I think about;
are almost taboo.
it feels wrong to know
that you love another
that you're so immersed in her
just like how i used you to make my emotions smother.
It's sad to know,
that the paint on the walls will dry
faster than the tears your beautiful eyes have made me cry
oh, to feel comfortable in my favourite place again,
to love you without betraying a friend.
Sometimes I think I finally found the one in you.
Sometimes I wonder if you feel it too.
Because when I look at you I don't feel ashamed anymore.
Because when I look at you I see a true friend.
Someone I can trust with heart and soul.
Finally;
Finally my heart feels whole.
You ask me if I am okay when no one else would because no one else notices.
You laugh with me when no one else would because we have jokes in common no one else has.
And I will blush when you look at me.
And I will smile when you look away.
And when you hold me tight,
I can't help but feel like I am on a flight.
The question dances
On my lips
You tell me
I seem to forget
You have changed
Not for the better
We used to be friends
Who did this to you?
Change is melancholy
You lose people
You didn't want to
But it happened
"Let it go," you say
But I can't..
His name was Tim McKay,
And he seldom had anything to say.
But he came to the club regularly
And listened to all our discussions.
He'd nod his head and smile,
And give us a toothy-giggly grin,
And he always seemed to understand.
Tim has gone on now.
And we all miss him down at the club.
We used to sit and talk to Tim for hours.
Would you go out
on a limb for a friend?
Crawl out there among the leaves and branches,
swaying in the breeze
with sunlight dappled leaves
across your physiognomy,
And would you stay there
Long up in the air
As night set in and the stars,
Would you stay there long?
And would you saw the limb
You're sitting on? And fall?
And what would you do
when you got up off the ground?
Stirring up dirt
I throw my leg
Over the motorcycle
And hang on
Down grizzly peak we hit air
pockets of plum blossom and pine
Henry turns back and shouts to me
I shout yes I shout yes
'cause I didn't hear him
My leg stinging with wind
Where I burned it on tailpipe.
Jeffie with your house full of
cockroaches,
In the oven of your house by the sea,
We came - we came, ready for
refreshment,
To the creakings of your house -
To the mussles and sandcrabs on the
beach and in your drawers -
We came to you, in a rush off the
highway,
While you, calmly and pregnantly
cooked artichokes in the kitchen -
Then we all lay down together
Underneath the night sea wind
That played across our tired bodies
Like spanish moss.
We all agree to miss the point,
at certain times
to start again
(We work so well together, friend
Ignore-ance
serves a purpose
none of us can mend
stop asking
and start telling me
that no, I'm not okay.
and now you're falling apart as I did
and I don't know how to save you from this madness
I know I can be loud
And obnoxious
And annoying
And stubborn
But I care so much about the people I surround myself with
But with so many people leaving me
It's hard for me to tell
If the problem is with people trying to cut me at my roots
Or if it's something with me that I can't see