It all started on the first day of school
I was wearing my flower crown- as usual
I walked to my locker and hoped
Today would be something good- nope
I got punched
And kicked
And called a loser
But after I was on the ground
I found a noise
A particular sound
Of you singing
To your hearts content
No one knew
My heart was sent
Days passed like a common cold
Seasons changed,
But in it all, time stood still.
That moment when our eyes first met,
When our hands touched
When our voices became one
When our lips first touched
When our bodies became one.
When our lives use to be one!
Months passed,
Leaves on the trees began loosing there color.
Every shade began to darken
Years passed,
Everything has lost its color.
No more sunshine,
No more rain fall,
I stared into your eyes and said three words
Smiled and kissed to confirm my oath.
Walked through rubbles of our flaws
Patched up our broken walls, with passion and desire.
Pushed through minor and major mistakes.
I kissed you when my lips had secrets
Unspoken, hidden deceit that broke us.
Pushed us back to square one.
Time and time again, like a book with many pages
But the same story repeated
Over and over again.
Same foolish mistakes clouded by naive wants
Wants that can't be nor can't have.
Clouds to thick that I can't see passed
To see what I already have.
Je veux tenir ta main
Je veux passer mes bras autour de toi
Je veux t'embrasser
Je te veux
What is "I want"?
Is it to long for something you don't possess?
Is it to dream of somewhere you've never been?
Is it to crave someone you have yet to taste?
Why is "I want"
So selfish?
So dirty?
So empty?
Is this scorching desire a cavern?
Are these screeches my own?
Is this oasis a mirage?
Maybe I want the wrong things
Love the
Way you wake
Up in the morning
Still dizzy from your dream.
How the first thing
You're doing is
Smiling at
Me.
I'm scared.
What if I look at you and
decide that
I don't love you anymore.
What if that spark goes away? What will I do then.
There is no one else for me.
You are the sky,
eternal and navy.
No matter how dark it is
or how early;
your blue.
Cup my face with your rough,
callused hands,
place your lips on my forehead,
tell me it's all gonna be alright.
Hold me in your arms
until the end of forever.
I'll swim in the ocean
that is your mind and
I'll stay there forever.
In you, I will drown my secrets & dreams and their corpses will sink forever,
for there is no bottom.
It's a day for the lovers
Can't relate,
It's a day for smiles,
Can't relate,
It's a day for tears,
Can't relate,
It's a day for loneliness,
Can't relate.
Though I walk through the darkest valley,
I will need no one.
While I smile, my mind reassures me,
I will fear no love,
I'm not lonely,
I'm alone.
But I'm holy
By my own.
We were giants
In this smol world.
Although i was smol to you
You were big to me.
Giving me affection
Was difficult
But it never stopped you
It took a while for those
Invisible strings to form
Around our hearts
And eventually
Bring us together.
So we waited.
My heart is heavy at the thought of you.
What you are is something I find difficulty put into words.
You make the muscles surrounding my mouth tense up and form a shape exposing crooked teeth.
(Not really a smile as much as it is a reflex.)
I feel this way and do these things at night and all through my day.
To the point where all motivation to do anything is absent from my thoughts. Speaking, moving, even breathing becomes a challenging task.
I need this feeling to stop.
For you to stop.
You make the world unsafe for me.
And you make the world unsafe for you.
The words that come out of your mouth are
"I love you"
But if you really loved me.
You would let me go.