Her heart wrenches in anticipation.
How can one person,
Make her yearn so badly?
I admire your kindness and gentleness,
But I don't think
You'd want someone like me.
All I'll bring you is disappointment.
I understand how much of a gentleman
You are being.
I admire that.
You're not like other guys,
Complimenting me on my body,
And saying things like "hot".
I don't want to be flattered by
Such vulgar comments.
But how can someone love me?
I am a nobody.
I am the lonely girl.
I know I'm not perfect,
But who in this world is?
I was never an object.
I was never "his".
In this world,
We believe we have too much skin.
It's like being unique
Is some sort of sin.
I was your sin,
You never cared about me.
I was completely different,
And you hated my personality.
I was your toy,
Until you got a new one.
It's hard for me to admit,
But you've actually won.
Do not come to me,
You will get hurt,
My hand are shaking,
Seeing you like this,
With no tears in me,
No hug for the morning,
Everything gone.
Gone from our sight,
I am gone in your heart,
Let them take me,
Do not take my hand,
Even i said i want it,
Aware,
Do not ever take my hand,
Just hate me,
Like the amount you love me,
When the sun rises I hope to be by your side
I hope you be with you watching the sky
I hope we'll be together for a long time
But I know that's selfish and it's not fine
So just for a little bit I want you to be mine
Hold me close and whisper in my ear
Comfort me with sweet empty words
Tell me you love me even if it a lie
Keep your secrets from me if you want
Don't kiss me, just hug me
You don't need to force yourself to smile alot
You can act like how you would normally
But don't hurt me, I've been through enough
Just let me bask in the warmth of another
There are things i dont want you to hear
Most of them are about you
The rest of them are about me.
Im gonna say them here
I love you
I hated you
I want to hate you
I need to hate you but i cant
I need to leave this place
I cant
I need to leave you
I cant
I want to die
I want to be free
I cant
I dont want this anymore
When will you see i was always there for you
When will you see me crying in my bed room
When will you see me on my own
When will you see me how i see you
When will you see me staring at you
When will you see me looking at you then at myself and frowning
When will you see me as me and not as just another girl
I can tell you what I think, I'm just scared
I can do what I want to, I'm just scared
scared of what you might say
what you might do
I'm scared that you're gonna give up like the others
that you are gonna leave me
that you'll turn around and never look back
I knew it would happen at some point
I just didn't think it would be this soon
I'm sorry but I left first without a proper goodbye
I hate myself for that
I'm just scared
because I love you
not because I don't want to
I do
its just you hurt me and I cant stay away from you
its like your the drug bringing me back
keeping me alive
and I need more of you
I cant quit you
I want to hate you
I just cant
I love you,
I know you don't love me back
I wish you did
I'm still confused
I don't know why
you told me clear as day
"I like you"
did I take it the wrong way
did I get my hopes up
did I think to quickly
I love you
you don't love me back
I will never fall for you again
Or maybe i will
Maybe i already have
Maybe its what im telling myself
Maybe thats what i will always tell myself
I have told myself from the first day i fell for you
Never again