Wishing you were here again.
Wishing I could see again.
Wishing the for the blinding light.
Wishing for your concern once more.
You lied to me,
I knew it so,
Yet my love never failed you once.
You hated me.
I knew it so,
But not once have you left my heart.
You never will.
I wish I could here those words again.
But you left before I could
Hear them twice.
Wishing you were here again.
Wishing we had that fight again.
What's the point in speaking,
if your words don't hold the truth.
The point for comfort shall
never fulfil the desire.
What's the point in our love,
when it a simple one way street?
The point: It's over,
For my love for you is gone.
What's the point in ending,
when we never even began?
You said you'd never leave.
But, here I stand. Alone.
When you're across the line.
I never thought I'd run solo.
But, here I stand. Alone.
Why is no one by my side?
You said your love would never did.
But, here I stand. Alone.
Where there's nothing left but hate.
I never knew the world could be so dark.
But, here I stand. Alone.
What else will only force me down?
You said we'd always be.
But, here I stand. Alone.
Who else is there to fear?
I never wanted this.
171,146 words,26 letters, 5 vowels and I still cannot tell you how much I love and appreciate you.
Anxiety holds my tongue as if it's a tamed horse. Not allowing me to say a few
Compliments will sail your way
When I learn to talk to you one day.
For now I stay silent appreciating you from afar
Ill say something one day when I gather all my might.
Sleeping is a thing of the past for now you keep me up at night.
This isn't a love poem I'm afraid to say.
I am obsessed with you I mean no harm
Just watching silently, no words to fray.
Words will hurt and burn my tongue
Making my stomach unravel then undone
The best friend I didn't know I'd have here
Will leave me when love is no longer there
At first, it's just a whisper
A faint ringing in my ears
But it grows louder
Until a screech;
A thud upon my shoulder
But it calms me
Against the deafening silence of before
And life emerges
From those hazel mirrors
That look into mine
So I heed the call
I answer the ringing
And together
We wage war against the quiet;
The nothingness;
The dark
you are moving at speeds i can’t even imagine
soon i will catch up
but at the moment i am 1000 miles away from you mentally
and you think i’m at the door ready to move
but i am not
i need time because the speed of you is beyond my reach
i need to focus on what is needed and what to do to make this gap much smaller
so give me time because the speed of you is beyond my reach
i can’t figure out why you think i’m with you but i can’t even see you, i hate that i have to explain this but i think you are about to forget me
just take this one leap across this gap and help me make it so the the speeds you are going are at least even imaginable
I sometimes ask myself why you? Why do I feel these emotions are true?
My mind retraces it's steps
To the start of everything
and I remember why I know it's you
On this path we've both walked
What's felt like mile,
has only been a few feet
What were blank faces, trapped in blank spaces
Are now colorful caricatures, discovering new places
Just two souls talking
Getting lost In the path they're walking
Once there was a desert,
With just another lonely soul
They'd wander every day,
Parched and broken
There appeared a river
I wanted to congratulate you
You won
You get the grand fucking prize
And I hope you enjoy him
Because he meant
Everything
To me
Every time I hear that song I think of you
And wonder if I still come to your mind
Probably not...
I'm not worth your thoughts
I broke your heart
If I deserve anything
It's your hatred
If I deserve anything
It's the foulest curse one can put upon another
If I deserve anything
It's anything but having you back
I know this
So why do I want you so damn badly
She is light
She doesn't believe so
But her smile powers my world
My world of rust and gears
This broken heart can once again function
From her kiss
Her touch invokes something in me
I didn't know I had
But how can one love another
If the place where we once met
Is no longer there
How can one love another
If that love is forbidden
Dirty and shameful
I am unashamed
But others
You don't have to open your flesh
To find love
Look for it elsewhere
In his eyes before he kisses you
In his smile after
In the sunrise shared
In the moonlight you dance beneath
His chin on your head
His face in your chest
Look for it in bed
As you disentangle yourselves in the morning
As you count his breaths at night
Don't mutilate yourself
Blood is not the same as love
It feels so at the time
But you know
We are constant
A cycle
Like the earth turning on its axis
Your love for me is constant
Though it is not often we are together
I feel like we could be forever
My love for you is constant
Though I often push you away
Know that it hurts me to do so
We are constant
A cycle
Changing as the seasons