but in reality
does it really matter who likes you
and who doesn't?
because at the end of the day
we're all still alone
and we don't even like
ourselves
is the four letter word
that kept me going after
love
let me down
its pretty hard to comprehend
why
everything has happened the way
it has.
things could've gone better,
we could both be a little happier,
and maybe in a different time or world
we would be together.
but until then,
we wait.
11;11
eyelashes
shooting stars
dandelions
pointless petals
on pretty flowers;
waiting and
waiting
countless hours.
All for one
wish,
that wont come true.
You're running away from me
while i waste my wishes,
love, and
time,
Each day it gets
Harder and
Harder
To wake up.
But the thoughts of
You
Keep me going
Like coffee in the morning.
"If it's meant to be,
It will be"
So I sit
And wait
Hoping you'll come back.
But I see you
Every week,
With a different girl.
And yes, it makes me sad.
And yes, sometimes
I do cry.
But I keep thinking
It's meant to be.
So I sit
And wait
For you to come back to me
They say love is in the air
So I hold my breath
Till my face turns blue.
Knowing you'll
Hold your breath
Too.
Because you don't think
You're loved
So you don't breathe.
And I know you're not
Breathing
So I don't either.
To the fact
That I wait around
Oblivious
To the fact
That I still care
And so oblivious
To the fact
I have always
And will never
Stop
Being here.
You are like a cigarette.
You make me weak,
Numb.
And as you destroy my insides,
I smile like a fool.
So I'll light you up
Twice a day
And you'll ruin me
In a bitter sweet way.
I wonder
What hurts more?
The scars on my wrists,
Or what you did to my heart.
You caused both,
No surprise.
But I thought you'd be
Different this time.
You feed me
All your bullshit
"I love you"
"I won't leave"
And I believe it
Every time.
It's sickening
The way you can pull me back
Into your arms
After every fight.
It's like I crave
For you to drop me
And then come around
And pick me back up.
Even if you did start trying
The night would always end
You
Brought me light.
You are my moon
On the darkest night.
You said forever
And I thought for life.
You only stayed
For a couple nights.
And those nights were glory
While my days were pain.
I danced through heaven
As you screamed my name.
But when you left
The darkness came
And I realised
You're the one who kept me sane.