When we met
You told me your dreams
And I always thought
I would be apart of them.
I was your first kiss
Your first valentine
And you were and will always be
My first love.
Years have passed since
Our lovely time.
As we grew up
You weren't mine.
And with another girl
The rest of your dreams came true
But mine never did
Because they all involved you
When I met you in 5th grade
It pained me
To see you with other girls.
So I made a move
To get you
To be mine and only mine.
As the years went on
You slowly forgot
All the things
I would not.
I still miss your eyes
And your smile
And I crave the way you looked at me
Every once in a while.
And now I'm older
But It still pains me
They say you have
To love yourself
Before you love anyone else,
But here I am
Loving you.
Dreaming of the day
When I could be me
And you could be you.
I'd love myself
And be happy too.
My wrists would be clear
And so would my mind.
You would start eating
As you used too,
And maybe your under eyes
Wouldn't be so blue.
But until that day comes
When we're hand in hand
I'll be dreaming of a place
Called Neverland.
But once again my mind
Is flooded with all the thoughts
Of what I'm not
Perfect
Skinny
Pretty
Happy
And with each thought
There is another cut
With a wish
Of finally being loved
By someone
Anyone
Me.
I want to have fun
Go out with people
Do crazy shit
And not regret it.
I want good friends
People who bring good vibes
And fun times
One or two "ride or dies"
I want a good laugh
When I'm in my darkest moments
Corny jokes and childish puns
Keep me happy till the morning sun.
But most of all I want love
Not just a one night stand
A ride or die, bubbly, fun person.
It's be nice if they could cook too.
Have you ever had an urge
To do something
You know is bad
But you do it anyways?
It's like cutting your hair
Kissing a boy
Eating a cookie
Breaking a toy.
Or her falling for you
After everyone told her not to.
Of course the girl in love never listens
Now she's in her room and her cheeks glisten.
But at least she was happy
For the time you played her
Now she's drinking away the pain
"I love you" she slurs.
I never realised
The smirk you had
When you were with me
I never realised
That little dimple
On your cheek
I never realised
How your eyes turned from blue to grey
When you were sad
I never realised
That only happened when you were with me.
I never realised
I caused you so much
Pain
I never realised
How bad you've gotten.
Why do you look so sad my darling?
Does the light not shine where you are?
I'll bring you a light
And make things alright.
Why do you cry my darling?
Do the fans not listen anymore?
I'll bring you tissues to wipe your eyes
I'll comfort you and question why.
Why do you hurt yourself my darling?
Does nobody believe you anymore?
I'll bring band aids to put on your wrists
And I'll give you love like I always did.
Why did you leave me my darling?
Did the lies become to much?
I gave you love and I told them to stop
But I guess that wasn't enough.
too bad it's the middle of june
and my Christmas lights are still up.
for once I'm sober, but you're still on my mind
you're no longer a drunk thought.
I thought you would go away when the vodka did, or the jack daniels, or even the Jose Cuervo; but all the alcohol is gone and the thought of you is as stong as the first sip of grey
goose.
Seeing you stand there alone
Makes me wish I would have told you.
About everything I've ever
Thought About you.
How I loved your dimple.
How I loved your eyes,
Your laugh,
Smile
How you seemed so carefree.
Maybe then she wouldn't be walking
Down the aisle
And it would be me.
LoVe
is...
Hopeless Romantics meeting for the first time
2 legal documents (marriage & divorce)
Between 2 people
Something strong
Something weak
Only in fairytales
A signal of hope
Anger and rage
Unbroken
Beakable
Fakeable
forever
Chance
Fate