Fell in ditches, rose, fell,...
then you came...picked me, held me, raised my esteem, replenished my pride...then I hit the ground hard on my face only to see you laughing at my fall...
It all happened when we first met at the sacred junction,
Where you ripped me apart,
And ventured into my deeper self
You whispered words of possession,
Which now sounds like bloody torture
You kissed my head off a dozen times,
Which now feels like deep, nasty knife stab
You slid your tongue through my spine
Which now feels like I've been cut open
You captured the very thing that keeps me alive,
Now, I'm dead... but my mind is still wandering...
Now I know I'm dead...
It's now me,again,as always
I thought I heard you call my name
I thought I heard you say you'd stay
I thought I heard you say I'm yours,
And it's now forever us
It's now me,again,as always
Probably you mentioned those words,
Yeah, three, simple, precise, yet deep
Probably the moist feel I received on my cheek,
Was moist,cold tear dripping down
It's now me,again,as always
I should think that warm, lovely sensational touches
Were those of hot coals my brain tricked me of
I should think those affectionate winks
Were those of diseased eye twitches
All that is left of you has turned sour,
So beautiful words
Words I often use
Words I often want to refuse
'I'm fine'
My biggest lie
But my biggest fight
Fight to be
I tend to say yes
When asked if I feel that way
I tend to hide in the word
Lacking in bravery
Hopefully one day I'll be brave
Brave enough to say the truth
The truth I live
And wish I didn't
Cause I say I'm fine
I say I'm better
Don't know if it's true
Don't know if it's a lie
But I still say things are looking brighter
Maybe this better is temporary
Maybe it's an illusion
But I wanna embrace it
Even if I know it's lost time
Sometimes I feel like I'm no better
I feel like the progress is gone
And I just wanna lay
Lay and cry the feeling away
And this better might end soon
Maybe in the night
While I look at the moon
With the thoughts I always fight
You bother me
Them with you bother me
Your person bothers me
Your acts bother me
And all that bother
Makes me feel like I'm a bother
And I hate being a bother
But your toxicity makes me feel like I'm always a bother
Your toxicity kills me
And your toxicity bothers me so much
I became a bother
My actions are a bother
My feelings are a bother
My person is the bother
You might know my name
You might know my face
You might know my gender
You might know my sexuality
But you don't know who I am
You might know my favorite color
You might know my favorite food
My favorite movie or series
My favorite singer
But you don't know my essence
You might know my happiness
You might know my sadness
You might know my suffering
You might know my crush
But you don't know my feelings,
My thoughts
I thought you were a tornado
I thought you would change my life
But I wasn't right
You were more of a storm
I know I shouldn't feel this
I shouldn't be asking what if
I know I'm the reason it ended
But I don't even know what I ended
Don't get me wrong
I don't regret it
But I still wonder what if
I still wonder if it was right
But I think I know it was
We simply weren't meant
But it hurts still
Maybe I'm not meant for anyone
So maybe I'm not hurt
Or, at least, not hurt it ended
Maybe I'm just hurt
Hurt of how I feel now
Rain is such a beauty
Everyone says it's pretty
But everyone covers from it
No one wants to enjoy it
They say it's beautiful when it comes
They say they can't wait
But when it does come
They don't want it
I feel like I'm rain
Everybody says I'm a catch
But no one wants to catch me
They just hide like I'm rain
When our gaze met
I wanted to smile
But no answer was on sight
So I kept it inside
"You have such a great mom"
"I wish I had your mom"
"Why don't you talk to your mom?"
"I love how I can talk to your mom but not mine"
This are all quotes
Quotes I've been told
But no one knows how she is
How she is at home
I love her
But sometimes I hate her
Only if they knew...
Of if they knew...
If they knew
How she stops everything
To talk to her boyfriend
To listen to him
You talk
You joke
You turn around
You walk away
You don't look back
But maybe you should
And see
What you never did before
I hope one day
You'll look back
And see
How your joke
Affected me
But for now
You just keep making it all
Never looking back