I was always alone...
I was always silent...
I was always broken...
When you reached out your hand and told me "it's okay",
I was never alone...
The dimples on your cheeks made my small heart open up to you...
The bright look in your face astonished my cold soul...
I fell in love with you...
I fell in love with your deep, shallow eyes which reflected the deep ocean of your own thoughts...
You shook off my hand,
Told me to leave...
I was left alone...
I was left empty...
For the love which I had made me tremble in fear...
I was always alone...
Always silent...
Feet tremble, gravel claws in
Cheek soaked to the bone in salt
All alone
Late summer heat fills my pores
Hope in my heart with every noise
That you've come
To apologise, to bring me home
The time never comes
Stomach rolls, begs, as the sun greets me once again
It's okay, I still love you dad
They press and poke
Better not let anyone see you cry
Don't feel those emotions
Apparently pretty is all im supposed to be
No one wants to see a pretty girl like you show emotion
Pretty girls like me don't feel so pretty
if i was to die tomorrow
I'd want my last day to be with you
the sadness i feel without you
seeps into the cracks
slithering through my muscles
making my bones shake
so if i was lying on my bed of death
I'd want you by my side
to make the void disappear
only you
I saw you again today. You were sitting on the red roses that I planted for you.
Is red roses still your favourite?
You still had your you-white color, not too yellow and not too white, just your perfect you-white.
You look so pretty.
I knew you had to leave sooner or later, but I wanted you to stay.
I've really missed you.
You flapped your wings, so I said Goodbye, and watched you fly away.
For now,
never,
and forever,
Goodbye.
I promised myself that I would push myself out of bed,
so I did.
I pomised myself that I would go outside,
so I did.
I promised myself that I would make new friends,
so I did.
I promised myself that I would never hurt my friends,
but I did,
And they didnt keep their promise either,
so I promised myself to never make new friends.
I promised to never go outside again.
I promised to never leave my bed again.
But no one actually keeps their promises right?
Sitting in the cold ink like darkness
The sound of clouds crying can be heard outside
Staring into the void
Looking for answers
Hoping for solace
Hoping for freedom
Residing in the emptyness
Staring at the closing void
Sitting on the cold floor
Clock ticking past 11
Silence fills the space
No words are said
Once again staring into the darkness
Looking for answers
Finding only a boy
Scared and alone.
The leaves fall in orange haze
Dazed and confused
I drown in the pool
How much longer must I fall in the deep end before I get out
How much longer must I swim closer to drowning than climbing
The bottom is solid void of life
My raisin hands lack moisture
My raisin body lacks soul
The more I lie the closer I get to the
casket
Longer Nights
Longer Hours slept
Less time awake
Closer to the soft hands of death
Cradled like my mother
Wondering when I decided it was time to get out
Grey days.
Bleak silence.
Rushing wind.
Hushed murmrs
Cold filter.
Colourless vegetation.
Clouded skies.
Blocked sun rays.
Lacking warmth.
Bleak silence.
I was scared so I closed my lips.
Now regrets are haunting me,
Whispering the words I left unsaid.
Your lies were the sweetest,
And your smiles were fake.
I am aware—you are a liar,
Yet I kept begging for more.
My heart decayed a long time ago
But its remains refused to disappear.
It stayed deep inside of me,
I am dead yet existing.