Blue
It's your favorite color
It's the splash of your laugh
It's the happiness I feel with you
White
It's our innocence
Its you knowing how I feel
It's us laying nonetheless
Grey
It's the mixed signals
Its me trying to understand
It's me failing
Red
It's hugs, arms around you
It's you and her
It's me watching in the wooden seat
I watched you
As the waves rolled by
Crashing on rocks
I watched you
I watched you
As you danced with the water
Your smile contrasting
I watched you
I watched you
On the edge of the shore
Toes in the water
I watched you
I watched you
With your polka-dot legs
Longer than class without you
I watched you
I wish,
that I could
carry you in my pocket all day,
Like some little good luck charm,
Or a leaf,
That has some exquisite venation
that you find
deep in the woods
where there's no one around
to hear you rustle around in the dead leaves,
in order to find the one that's
just barely clinging to life,
But it's the perfect shade of green
to describe just how lucky you feel
to have someone who loves you
Inexplicably
i had
the sweetest dream about you
Yesterday.
You were wearing
those clothes
that show
your strong muscles
beneath your smooth skin
and you had that crooked smile
the one
that first starts as a twitch
of the corners of your lips
and ends in this comical expression
that gives me butterflies
that rummage around in my stomach
searching for some ounce of an opening so that to find their way out
Why do you do these things to my heart?
You pull me in and hold me close,
And just when I've burned your image into my brain,
You let go.
Disappearing into the haze surrounding my thoughts-
and for a while I don't know what to do.
It's strange to not need someone and to need them all at once-
To want to push them away and hold them close at the same time.
It's true that things were never supposed to turn out this way,
Friends, right?
Always friends-
who never admit the things we thought or said or breathed in hushed whispers over the phone lines because we were too afraid to be heard.
Always friends-
Sometimes I want nothing more,
Than to be the one who has given you a reason to smile,
I've tried to erase the image of you from my brain,
I've tried a hundred times,
To take the giant eraser of my mind,
And erase,
The smell of your too strong cologne-
Which is, by far, not too strong now,
As my nose tries to grasp on to a scent
Too strong from two years ago.
I've tried to erase the idea of you from my brain,
But it's almost like a punishment,
Like scraping gum off the bottoms of desks in high school,
You are the gooey gum,
Stuck to the desks of my mind,
And no matter what,
No matter how hard I scrape,
Little bits and pieces of you stay in the filaments of my brain,
Come closer darling,
Into the midnight,
Honey come home,
There's far too much at stake.
Cause the moon
It rests
On the breast of the sky.
Forever enchanting us with its presence,
As it glows incessantly,
It represents our love,
Powerful
and forever present,
Despite the time of day,
Or the month,
Or the year.
Trust me love,
4:55 a.m.
Tuesday morning shuffle
to the boathouse
because it’s too early
for a bus
but not too late
for a mother to be of use
before he’s grown & gone
love in
an early morning drive
water me
I may go dry
without sin
how do I find
a person to lose
my ice with
the first time we touch
is a banquet for hands
within an egg
the light is beautiful
as a bruise
and we could go play
at another door
little home
the eyeprints of love
all too big
a rose and a wren
entered in
my memorandum book
under wonderful but plain
a different kind
of presence
alone together
we promise to speak
with our hands