Im glad i didnt end my life for you

I never thought I would give up my life so easily, I was taken back by your words and held onto them tightly. Now I still hold onto them, although I look at them with no trace of thought, I was never happy with you, I was scared and frail, You taught me many things, and told me I didn't deserve most of life itself. I had wished that I had put my life aside that day, but now I crave being alive. I crave seeing my future, and where it will take me. I look forward to seeing my partner and speaking with them. I am older and decided to save myself from the darkness your finger tips had held. My chest doesn't hurt before I sleep I want to live I want to decide for myself I want to love and hold my hands out