Logan Brosemer's "Suicide" is a raw first-person account of living with suicidal thoughts every day while trying to keep other people alive. The speaker begins by naming the word and its power, then describes a routine of talking themselves through each day. Helping friends who were struggling gives them a new purpose, and being "the rock" for others keeps them strong too.
That balance breaks when the speaker's brother attempts suicide. The speaker saves him, but blames themselves for nearly failing. The poem's turning point comes when a woman they love confides her own wish to die, and the speaker breaks the silence she asked for to keep her safe. The short, hard lines near the end, "Not this. / Never this.", sound firm and desperate at once. The mood is heavy, urgent, and exhausted. The final broken-off line, "I just can't....", suggests how much this fear costs the speaker.