Rebecca — Summary

I saw your face, I was going to say "Hi" But I shied away. I don't know why. You seemed troubled to me, As though your mouth was stitched shut, A place that I had once been, A place where I struggled to get out, I recall that you were troubled. Then one day You had disappeared, To where or why I did not know And it's too late to say that I cared. You were gone but I kept searching for your face, In the crowds of uniformed people, I kept searching for your face, In a crowed of named strangers, I still search for your face. You never came back And I have my guesses as to why But these guesses seems so wrong in my mind, When I don't know where you are, I think back to 2 years ago And I don't know where you are. But I did care, Once upon a time And know only that, I was a stranger, But I did care.

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The speaker remembers a girl, addressed as "Rebecca," whom they once noticed but never spoke to. They meant to say hello and backed away, without knowing why. She seemed troubled, as if her mouth were "stitched shut," and the speaker recognises that feeling from having been in that place themselves. Then she vanished, and the speaker never learned where or why.

What gives the poem its ache is the speaker's regret. They keep looking for her face in crowds of uniformed people and "named strangers," and the repeated line "I still search for your face" shows the habit hasn't faded. The speaker has guesses about what happened, but none feel right. The poem ends by insisting, almost defensively, "I did care," even though they admit they were only a stranger. The mood is wistful, uneasy and quietly guilty, full of the pain of a kindness that never got offered. The uniforms suggest a school setting, though that is an inference from the imagery.

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