d a z e d — Poem analysis

vantesaladRomantic

The more you know, the easier it gets, was something I have heard before. I don't remember much of the context but I am different now, I guess. The more I know, the more the maze tightens, like your hands around my neck when we melt away, fighting with each other. It is love too, you know, when the anger crushes your bone and your throat is sore with the shouts and the longing which doesn't ever satisfy, a thirst that one can never really quench. A thirst for you. Not just the heat when you lay next to me but the you that is hidden from the million eyes who see you for how you look and value you for who you are to them, as if they know you down to the last cell, as if they know you like I do. And I don't like it, tell me how could I. But, what do you do to make it better; you turn the anger into a pleasure we cannot live without, as I tangle into you and make sure this knot doesn't loosen up for you to slip. But it does no matter, and even so, you stay. This is where I know it's real. But so is the fear, when you shine like the earth to my moon. I am merely a rock, would let you trample me beneath your diamond soles. Then why do you ask if I am still the same person, I'd give my world to you any day - "You used to be brighter, I guess." Do I know the answer? No. But what I do know is -

in your eyes I've been lost too long like the deep beneath of the sea it spoke of a beyond to me

a silver daydream

you were a poem woven in my veins your fingers stained with ink stain my vision as I sink

into a blood red haze

your touch, a conditioned harmony the wind that breaks through my hair your stare of which I should've known would be the end of my belief

smack your lips as you taste salt on mine and make waves smile and the sun shine

brighter, I guess

lasting gaze of which I couldn't have known would wreck my existence apart like a mirror when I looked at you a cracked illusion unpuzzled and sprawled

pick the most vulnerable pieces

make Or break

i'd gladly leave that upto you

but when the morning comes you taste

of lemonade and the strawberry shakes a sight tinted rose

i will always drown in this technicolor daze

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"The more you know, the easier it gets" is the kind of reassurance people repeat without thinking, and the speaker of "d a z e d" overturns it at once: "The more I know, the more the maze tightens." A maze that closes in is a claustrophobic picture of love, and it sets up the poem's central tension. The speaker knows the beloved better than "the million eyes" that judge only by appearance, and that knowledge is what traps them. Tenderness, anger, thirst and fear are braided together here, and the poem never claims to untangle them.

The form carries this confusion. The poem opens with a long block of breathless, conversational prose full of "you know" and "tell me how could I." Its sentences run on like an argument that won't stop, with hands at the throat, a "sore" voice and a thirst that "doesn't ever satisfy." The most unsettling moment comes when the speaker says the lover's staying is "where I know it's real." Offering endurance through anger as proof of love is something readers may want to question, and the poem leaves room for that, since the very next sentence admits "so is the fear." The speaker then draws a tilted astronomical picture: the beloved shines "like the earth to my moon," while the speaker is "merely a rock" under "diamond soles." A moon shines only with reflected light, so the image may hint that the speaker's brightness was always borrowed. That is an inference, but it fits the lover's offhand remark, "You used to be brighter, I guess," which the speaker cannot answer.

After this, the poem breaks into short lines and loose, chiming rhymes: sea and me, ink and sink, mine and shine. The rhymes are imperfect and drifting, like a half-remembered song, which suits a daydream. Sound does more work than rhyme alone. "Daydream," "haze" and "daze" echo each other through the poem, and the spaced-out letters of the title force you to read slowly, as if the word itself were blurring. Colour shifts in the same way, from "silver" to "blood red" to "rose" and finally "technicolor," moving from cool and dreamy, through violent, to sweet and artificial. Technicolor is a vivid, heightened colour, and the word suggests a world brighter than reality.

Water saturates the verse too: "sea," "sink," "salt," "waves," "drown." Salt on the lips is romantic, but it also hints at tears. The lover's kiss can "make waves smile and the sun shine," and the next line, "brighter, I guess," returns the earlier insult without quotation marks. It now reads as the speaker's own thought, an accusation absorbed until it sounds like private doubt. The phrase also echoes the speaker's earlier "I am different now, I guess," so "I guess" becomes a tic of someone who cannot trust their own certainty.

The break comes with the mirror. The speaker looks at the lover and sees "a cracked illusion / unpuzzled and sprawled." "Unpuzzled" is an invented word that undoes a puzzle, and it answers the maze of the opening. Then comes "make / Or / break," with the capital "Or" stranded on its own line so the choice hangs in the air. The speaker offers to "gladly leave that upto you." Notice the capital "I" used throughout the verse, which becomes lowercase only in the last two instances: "i'd gladly leave" and "i will always drown." The self shrinks as it surrenders.

The ending is sweet on the surface. Morning brings "lemonade and the strawberry shakes" and "a sight tinted rose," the sugar of childhood and the cliché of rose-tinted glasses. But the final verb is "drown." The speaker is not fooled, and sees the danger clearly and chooses the daze anyway.

That is what makes the poem worth reading. It does not decide whether this is devotion or surrender, and it lets both feelings stand. It leaves readers asking when being lost in someone becomes a way of losing yourself.

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