i'm not the perfect sister
or daughter
or friend
i'm not the best looking
or sounding
or thinking
i'm a failure
yes that is true
a name i'll wear proudly
because i was the first to call myself it
i'm not the best at remembering
or planning
or doing
i'm not the most talented at cooking
dancing
singing
It's easier to admit to
a higher power, when you're higher
than the clouds. Something does it,
easily throwing a bulls eye of light
against their white caps below. My eyes
don't dart to it, they settle softly
into its faded blue center. Who
questions it, what you can't
know? I knew the snow of his hair
that's now ash. I knew it, but I can't
know the why, or the how of its
sudden change. Or the when I'll follow.
Today even darkness couldn't scare,
In it I felt like a relief from despair,
I felt like it will embrace my scars,
And provide solace to those parts,
It just concealed my wound,
Like an escape from reality I found,
I felt you were present,
In these shadows and in air,
And the words I speak you can hear,
Because you said I'm your forever friend,
And even after this world,
This kind of love never ends.
Sweet tones ring the air,
A Noyade of memories.
I prance and fly, to the tune I once knew.
Days of old come back like arrows,
Threatening the horizon.
How I missed dancing like this,
With a melody so nostalgic,
I can't possibly fret.
And I dance the night away,
The wind's tune carrying me afar.
Surreal
I ponder.
Memories of my friend seem like a dream.
I feel their not truly open,
And yet, here you are.
Where everybody else quit, I see you in my rosebush cage.
you made my hopes go
up
higher than I could ever get on my own.
but they never came back down
and you left me all alone.
as you and your friends
walked and laughed away
my hopes are still in the clouds
because they, and I
think you'll come back someday.
you stay up
all night
trying to convince
that stranger over the internet
across the seas,
or maybe even your best friend
across the street,
not to hurt themselves,
or die tonight,
but they never question
if you're alright.
so once you convince them
to not cut or commit suicide,
you're back in your room
questioning your own life.
Everyday
Im afraid
That everyone will leave me.
I know I'm not the nicest
Prettiest
Smartest
But I love my friends.
I don't want pity
I'm fine by myself
I just like company
I don't want to be a charity case
I don't want you to think I'm a sorry face
But everyday I worry
That you'll leave me
Sad and sorry.
I want to have fun
Go out with people
Do crazy shit
And not regret it.
I want good friends
People who bring good vibes
And fun times
One or two "ride or dies"
I want a good laugh
When I'm in my darkest moments
Corny jokes and childish puns
Keep me happy till the morning sun.
But most of all I want love
Not just a one night stand
A ride or die, bubbly, fun person.
It's be nice if they could cook too.
You wanna know what's love
That morning text saying good morning
Just to see if you're still breathing
Or if you're alive and well and can make it to dinner in the evening
Roles reversed those same people will forget about you
Eating dinner without you
Never even sending a text, cause they busy
Asking why aren't you
They forget, open your text and close the phone
You thinking about double texting but nope let me just leave it alone
Come to find out the next morning they're not answering the phone
Maybe I should've sent another text
Because now I'm reading on the news, how you're dead and gone
She sat there with
A smile on her face
As she watched the girl
Act with such grace
She watched the girl laugh
Music to her ears
She watched her with admiration
More than her peers
They were friends
Thats what everyone knew
A group with equal attention
A group of few
But she saw her as more
As different from the rest
She saw her as greater
The best of the best
the clock on her wrist makes the ticking sound she loves so much as she walks home in the dark
she's happy
she had a fun time for once
a fun time with her friend that never has the time to hang out with her because she has other, now closer friends
she cares for her,
but they both know that their paths aren't as close as they were
but she's happy and she won't let that get to her
not now,
the clock on her wrist makes the ticking sound she loves so much as she walks home in the dark
she's happy
she had a fun time for once
a fun time with her friend that never has the time to hang out with her because she has other, now closer friends
she cares for her,
Why me
We talked all day
Didn't lose hope
On our bad days
Kept each other
Company at home
And sometimes
I would stay
Knelt together
Just to pray
I asked what words
I would tell my crush
When i didn't have
Words to say
Lay in the grass
To find our matching