I'm used to stay outside & wet
Of the heavy rain,
Just like how you treated me...
I forgot that I'm not the only one
Who's trying to win your wild precious heart.
I forgot that I'm not the only one
Whose heart's being pricked by a thousand darts.
I try to surpress what I think is vile:
A simple act; my heart beats and it skips.
By standing by the sides, watching you smile,
Always, it brings a curve up to my lips.
There the clock has no hands, no hands,
Yet the time still turns.
I didn't have no plans, no plans,
But the heart still yearns.
Down on one knee, but the church bells stopped their tolling.
Slip on the ring, but the birds've stopped their singing.
Don't you hate me, don't you hate me darling?
She's a scarecrow, but I can't stop how close I'm getting.
There the sky has no clouds, no clouds,
But the light still dies.
Here there's no crowd, no crowd,
Yet I can still feel their eyes.
Hear that sweet song, but there's nobody out dancing.
Turn up the heat, but there's nobody out moving.
Don't you hate me, don't you hate me darling?
She's a sideshow, but I can't stop how much I'm watching.
They said that I'd find water
But all I found was blood
The cave, a deep dark cover
From all I thought I loved
And though my heart's a fortress
The soldiers are breaking in
The soldiers I used to call friends and family
Now know that I have sinned
And like a weakened kingdom
My walls came tumbling down
And my blood ran like a river
Pooling all around
Days pass and I am Unnoticed,
By the girl I have been dreaming of,
By the girl who made everything in my life a little better.
By the one girl who can steal my heart but I can't steal hers.
I wish it was me, not another fool,
With each passing hour, minute, second,
Everything stops when I see her,
But to her, I am nothing but..
A friend.
At least to her;not to me.
Somewhere in between our laughs and jokes.. I fell.
Hard.
I wish I didn't have to fall like that,
It hurt.
The feeling of uncertainty,
Knowing she'd pick anyone over me.
Do it
Says my mind
Nothing bad can happen
But my heart closes
Afraid of being hurt again
We were just getting started
It's my heart that you kept
In silence we parted
In silence you left
That's how it started
Again
But can you?
Can you be friends with someone that you once loved?
Can you be friends with someone that broke your heart?
Can you be friends with that person
Without falling in love again
Without seeing that side on them you loved
How are you supposed to prevent that from happening?
How are you supposed to build up a shield around your heart?
How are you supposed to just be friends?
I want to
I want to be capable of just being friends
I don't want a broken heart
I don't want to feel the power of love again
You're supposed to be smarter
Loneliness comes over you in the strangest of all moments
It takes just a song
A song that overwhealms you with this strange feeling
And you keep listening to it
Again and again
But that feeling lasts
It has its claws deep in your heart
And suddenly you start crying
Eventhough you don't really know why
So here I sit
Crying
Unable to understand why
Hoping that feeling will go away
But it doesn't
It stays with me
Stays with me like an unwelcome companion
I say " I'm never going to do that again "
But i did
I say " I'm not scared anymore "
But i am
I say " I'm hard to catch "
But I'm not
I say " my heart is strong "
But it is not
I hope my heart is strong as my brain,
I wish my brain teach my heart.
I pled my heart accept like my brain,
But then i realised both my brain and heart
Are useless stupids.
2 years,
That's how long i can go without love.
Thanks to my heart,
my lungs and rib cages,
serving as protective layers,
I'm able to store
the love i received from my previous relationships
For whenever I need it.