I want to live,
But I know I'll have to die once again,
And this time I'm not ready for that pain,
Still processing my last wounds,
Healing them with pacifying sounds,
Looking at the sky and nature's weapons,
Waiting for a miracle to happen.
Why don't you take care of me?
My body cried
because you don't look like them
I replied
Then do what ever you want to me
My body said as it cried in excruciating pain
Destroy me just to look 'normal'
you tell me that
violence never does nothing
but your words
tear me apart
just like
violence does
it's so weird
that two weeks ago
I didn't hurt myself
because of you,
but today,
because of you,
I did.
You were the one
That broke me
And I'm still waiting
For someone
To put me back together
You are like a cigarette.
You make me weak,
Numb.
And as you destroy my insides,
I smile like a fool.
So I'll light you up
Twice a day
And you'll ruin me
In a bitter sweet way.
She smokes
He cuts
Different things
But for the same reasons.
She's harmed
On the inside
He's harmed
On the out.
Her skin hides
The effects
Long sleeves
Hide his.
With the disguises
She can't see his pain
And he can't see hers.
Their eyes tell
Have you ever had an urge
To do something
You know is bad
But you do it anyways?
It's like cutting your hair
Kissing a boy
Eating a cookie
Breaking a toy.
Or her falling for you
After everyone told her not to.
Of course the girl in love never listens
Now she's in her room and her cheeks glisten.
But at least she was happy
For the time you played her
Now she's drinking away the pain
"I love you" she slurs.
I never realised
The smirk you had
When you were with me
I never realised
That little dimple
On your cheek
I never realised
How your eyes turned from blue to grey
When you were sad
I never realised
That only happened when you were with me.
I never realised
I caused you so much
Pain
I never realised
How bad you've gotten.
If only you knew how much waiting hours to hear from you hurts me.
My heart is slowly grated that I'm constantly in pain.
Turning it into a soup that boils vigorously,
As my chest is filled with this steam that makes it hard to breath.
As the night falls, I crumble.
I'm tough on the outside, but a marshmellow inside.
I could cry if I could, but I won't.
I'd rather live with this burning sensation than lose my wits.
If you can hear my heart beat,
Please come back before I lose it.
hey sis, I know my eyes are red and i'm smelling of cigaretts and cheap vodka
I know you'd probably be better off without me, so one day i'm leaving.
but for tonight, hold me like we used to and take my pain away.
I use your love to feel better about myself when I know one day i'll be leaving and tearing you apart.
this is not fair on you, I know, but you deserve someone who picks you off of the ground instead of someone who can't even open their eyes.
But for now,
hold me?
she felt so lonely.
so empty.
she wanted to be happy. to laugh, smile with no worries. wich she hadn't done for years.
as she thinks about it, she only feels more emptieness,
she can't remember a time where she had no worries. she just wanted to live a simple life.
no tears.
no pain.