I sit away from you.
Yet you smile.
I look away from you.
Yet you blush.
I leave the room.
Yet you still hold the smile.
Maybe it was never me.
Maybe I was never able to see.
You were involved with others.
Ones I called brothers.
Now I'm just used by another.
Have you ever wanted to die.
To no longer cry.
To never listen to people ask about your eyes.
Why are they red.
Why are you so happy.
I'm sadly not happy.
In fact I'm sad.
I'm depressed.
I hate me....
You hate me.
So why not leave.
Leave the immaturity.
Leave the lost love and
The memeorys of us. Of you
It saddened me to know.
I actually want to do it.
You used to write.
No longer.
You used to smile at me.
No longer.
You used to care.
No longer.
I used to love you.
No longer.
I used to give a shit.
No longer.
I changed my Insta.
Changed my number.
Deleted my kik.
And dropped my heart.
Let's just never talk.
Its better that way.
Pour.
Fall.
Flood.
Heat.
Evaporate.
Repeat.
Fall.
Love.
Happiness.
Hate.
Lose.
Repeat.
I feel like shit.
The words really hit.
The goodbye really split.
We really split.
After everything I wanted.
You never gave.
After everything you wanted.
I never gave.
Unproductive lifestyles kill me.
So I said goodbye.
I upset you today.
I never explained why.
I just didn't text.
I didn't smile.
I drove home alone tonight.
I'm ok with that.
He made a choice.
One for himself not her.
To give her peace.
To give her meaning.
Yet it was mistaken.
You said I have an ego.
Well this is honestly true.
But, I have one.
Based on what you do.
I say fall for him.
Because I'm not the best.
But that's not enough.
You want to hurt me.
And sacrifice your happiness.
Have you seen what I've done?
I love you. From day one.
What is love.
What is life.
Who is above.
Who is my wife.
Why do I love.
Why do I have life.
What if i love.
What if I'm given life.
Who can show me love.
Who can take my life.
Why am I in love.
Why do you have life.
Women give love.
Women give life.
I don't understand love.
I don't understand life.
We became with something.
Ended with nothing.
But remember everything.
When nothing's left to lose but the future the gods renounce compassion.
Like an experience un-had
A game unplayed
A promise unfulfilled,
Like a person un-met
A friendship un-created
A dinner uneaten
A book unread,
Like a story unwritten
A language unlearned
A house un-built
And un-lived in:
Like those songs you never listened to
Because you never got the chance
Like the day you stayed in bed
When you could have done
So many other things;
You don't need to tell me
How it happened, I was there
I saw the rain fall
And turn to ice
I saw the people flock
To the broken coffee machine
I watched five grown men
Fight over a throw blanket
And when I called you
You were too sad to speak
You couldn't bear to see it
You were too sad to even cry
But we needed you
We needed Mrs. Overcoat
To keep our spirits warm;
I was also there
To be with us tonight.
Since you've been gone,
Life has been a challenge.
I wish you were here
To talk with us tonight.
Without your stories and your jokes,
The mood will never be the same.
You did things I could not
And saw places near and far.
I wish you were here
To help us out tonight.
You'd probably have the best advice
And know exactly what to do.
Now that you're not here,
We need you the most.
Though I know you can't be,