This night is so dark
With shining stars
How my heart is dark
With small hopes
They say stars are dead
My hopes too
Even though they shine bright
Like mine do
I knew they were useless
But i mind
I never let them go
Because I can't
Never get them off away
Oh My heart
Stupid heart! Let them go
Let's never hope .
Were we friends? More than friends?
I never questioned until you left.
What's the definition of best friend?
Make me understand.
I need you to talk to me like we used to.
Am I going overboard?
I don't know if your lover thinks of you
but I miss you like crazy.
I thought my memories were long gone.
I felt stupid for that.
Never did I know, they were hidden
All deep down inside me.
I envy everyone with their best friends
Are they all the same like us?
Were you true to me? I got trust issues.
None were real. Did you ?
The girl who loves to be alone
Now fears to be lonely
The girl who smiles easily
Now fake a smile
The girl who loves to hear music
Now lives in it
She isn't the same, she changed a lot
She stayed quiet for a reason
You know why, uh?
She wants to make them happy
She wants to make their problem go away
She loved them more than her
To give them happiness she lost her own
So she remained silent
You were like a star to me.
You have always been for me.
Either if it's day or night
You cared,loved, protected;
Like a brother, friend
More than a friend;
Yeah, best friend.
Everytime when i look at the stars
That reminds me of you
They say dead souls become stars.
Are you a star ?
Do you still check on me?
I missed you when you were gone
I still do.
So, my dear best friend;
You are the brightest star i knew
He was a little boy; just turned two,
Walking at the park, with his mother in blue.
To everyone he saw, this is what he'd say,
"Hey! My daddy's comin' home today.
He's been at the war, fighting for us,
But now he's coming home in that army bus.
He promised he'd come today in his letter.
I used to miss him, but this will make it all better."
The people would look in the mother's green eyes,
They saw the pain and regret of the lies.
And they knew the truth, as it is for some,
That boy would be waiting for what would never come.
The boy learnt to run without stopping.
Spreading his arms and aiming for the mountains.
Even the wind bowed at his strength.
As he embraced the world with a grin.
But then, his arms are shaking.
And for a while, He is lost in a mysterious fountain.
His breath lost to the sea and his voice faint.
He gazed at the image before him.
What a wonderful creature!
He moved closer to behold the image
And then he is trapped in the beast's nest
He saw more than his weary eyes could eat
He painted so quickly a perfect future.
Slowly he grow impatient and there came rage.
He thought he had found love clothed in a dress
But Love had scars,dressed perfectly with the help of a makeup kit.
had
you
at sunset
lost
you
at dawn
Do you know what it feels like?
To have death stalk your thoughts
and follow you more than your own shadow?
to have it haunt you as if everyday is halloween night?
to be so close it that the smell stanches your skin?
to have it mindfuck you every night?
to not want to wake up
and face reality head-one with nothing
but duffel-bag eyes, a tired body and hopes of today being better than yesterday?
Do You?
I often ask myself,
am i wilting
because i am past my prime?
or because you did not
give me the one thing
that i need to survive,
even though i begged you
countless times to provide me
with it.
Everything is fine
Or that’s how it seems to be
Nothing is wrong
That’s what others think of me
Everything is happy
When I play my cards right
Nothing is sad
If we talk while there is light
Everything is joyful
Because I talk about random things
Nothing is depressing
Covered in my mask, so clean
Everything is random
I make it so
Nothing makes sense
If I accidentally make a row
Life is just a pattern,
there is nothing new,
nothing special.
The same old thing,
day after day.
Nobody cares,
nobody notices,
it is good that nobody notices.
If they noticed,
they would only get hurt.
If they tried to love,
they would be heartbroken,
their heart’s would die.
I do not want to hurt them,
so it would be safest just to go.
I remember almost every moment,
but when I ask you,
you just don't answer.
I don't know how you cannot remember our first year together.
But somehow you do,
and that's really confusing.
My heart shriveled up and died when I learnt,
but it's nothing new to me.
It's happened countless times before,
what's one more time?
I remember the first time we kissed,
now I'm wondering if it even matters to you.
I remember everything,
big or small.
But you can't even remember our best Christmas together.
You who can usually remember everything,