I want to talk to you but how can I?
I'm still broken
Although I'm getting better
How can I talk to you,
When your mind is still a muddle
And you don't know what you want?
It would only end in more pain,
Pain for you and for me,
Brought about by our mutual confusion.
Oh how I wish that I could talk to you,
That I could hold you in my arms.
Lay with you looking up at the stars.
I hate what has happened to us.
I hate that you won't talk to me.
I hate that I cannot bring myself to utter the first words.
I hate that I am afraid to...
A pain in my chest
Too strong to deal with,
I try to cut it out.
Saved by a loved one
But sent away to be with the insane
I tried to get better,
Listening to the others like me,
Helping when I could.
I stopped thinking about her,
At least to the extent I had before.
Most thoughts were of memories,
The good times we had shared,
Not the bad
I has happier though I missed her greatly.
But then the world came back,
The flashing lights,
Is it cold
I say
As I wipe the tears away
My life is such a waste
I wish I could just pray
But no, I'm not religious
And that fact will stay
For my motto is to give up
And just live another day.
I can't get you out of my head when I know I should,
They say I should forget you but only If I could.
You're always on my mind,
Even when you're un-kind.
She's all that you think about,
But you still have a doubt.
You asked me for advice about her,
But I'm sorry, Sir.
I can't help you there.
The tears still shine,
The moon still glows.
They seem brighter,
With tears in my eyes.
When i cry,
a memory of us leaves me,
A memory i wish i had never had,
A memory i wish i shouldnt have to remember.
But know they're nearly all gone,
And soon, very soon they'll be all gone.
And i'll be able to smile,
Without a care in the world
the times i smile,
are the times when your no where to be found.
the times when i'm with another,
the times when i'm with my best friend.
when we can just be us,
when we can just mess around.
But i can't do that when your around.
For once i'm happy,
but then you find away,
away to bring me down,
down to the ground.
where you and me are equal,
where you can cause me pain.
Where i can never be happy.
So long as your around.
So long as your smiling,
I can never smile too
It didnt hurt back then,
but it sure hurts now.
Now that i know i'm leaving,
But not just for a day.
This time i'm leaving for good.
i see you smiling,
and cant help but smile too.
you were my best friend,
but times have changed.
And now your with him.
the man i used too love.
i wish you the best,
and hope you dont get hurt,
the way i did.
Please hold me daddy.
And don’t let go.
Cause I really miss.
You daddy.
More then.
You know.
You said that you.
Would always be there.
By my side, Daddy why.
Did you go?
How come you lied?
Mummy won’t tell me.
I see her cry real late.
At night, she keeps.
Asking for you.
I cried today daddy so.
Sometimes I wish I could escape my mind.
Because my mind is driving me crazy.
Every word it says make me feel less happy, less beautiful and most of all less worthy.
I know I shouldn't listen to the voices in my mind, but there is that one voice that is telling me that maybe it's right what my head says.
Maybe I am disgusting,
Maybe I am a person that everybody hates,
And maybe I am better of dead.
So why not listen to my mind for once,
Would I be better of dead?
And most of all, would I be missed?