My longing for you weakens my heart
All the birds are silent as we grow apart
Will you leave me to my destiny
Will you come and find me
I spell your name in fear to remember
Scared to feel thorns in my pulse, burning rush
Your radiate face is more than a figment
Yet, impossible to touch
Mother,why didn't I kiss your hands everyday
Do you hear my prayers mother, they are all for you
I send them every morning with drops of dew
What words can do, when my all is still so few
You are here, when it rains on those hills above
When I imagine your laugh and feel your love
When the pink clouds come by, stand by and pass
You are here when my heart is a pile of shattered glass
I'm wasting away.
This disease is destroying me,
I know you'll be there to welcome me.
It started after you left.
My heart and chest constrict at the thought of you,
or is it the disease that causes it?
I can no longer tell.
Thoughts of death fill my mind.
Thoughts of my death;
thoughts of yours.
Time is trivial now.
I'm dying;
it's killing me from the inside out.
I'm coming to find you,
meet me by the gates.
With one glance you held me captive.
Your stunning blue eyes shone brighter than lightning,
your heartbeat drums in my ear,
your breaths shallow as I run my thumb across your knuckles.
Even now I can still your voice,
your shadow haunts my days.
Every day I can feel you, hear you,
yet you linger just beyond the fringes of my vision.
You're gone,
and I don't know what I'm supposed to do.
You were my sun.
My world revolved around you,
but the sun has burst.
You were my moon; the light in my darkness,
but the moon no longer shines,
and all I'm left with is the stars.
The sky is such a pretty color
It reminds me a lot of my ex lover
In the day it stays real bright
But all it's doing is hiding the night
I thought he loved me
But I just didn't see
It was I
Who was way up high
In the clouds
Bright and loud
But at night you see some twinkles
Just like those cute little winkles
Everytime I look up at the sky
Each star feels like another lie
The lies that he told
When we were 21 years old
Throughout my life I have met so many people that mean so much to me.
But how is it that I always end up ruining everything I meet or touch.
I've been hurt by my most important people so many times.
Over and over again.
To the point where I turn numb and everything is just dark.
Where my tears no longer come when I want them to.
Now.
I can no longer cry.
And I can no longer feel.
you proved me wrong,
i messed it up
it hurts like hell
never knew I was the one...
you proved me wrong,
i tried to hold it up
long before I even knew
we had already fallen apart...
I knew the flames would come
In the night they always do
Engulfing the frozen vessel
That my soul has moved into.
The ice is numbing
Yet distant to the touch
Unable to escape
The fire's inevitable clutch.
The walls begin to crumble
Yet the numb vessel remains
Under the heats of the flames
So distant. So unfazed.
Walls of a life long forgotten
Everything I have ever made
Succumbing to the flames
Any single thing that made me happy
I start to cry for the one I lost, tears thick yet delicate like early morning mist.
As if sensing my pain, the moonbeams become dusty and weak as the moon mourns with me.
It too understanding the feeling of a lost love, like being choked with silk, dying slowly, but revelling in the soft, lingering touch.
Walking through the sand at night
Feeling like an empty jar
Hunger striking like lightning
The desert taunting me
The Moon laughing at me
Sand turns into chocolate
The rocks are now fruits
Ice cream appears everywhere
I eat the chocolate ground
Only to get a handful of sand in my mouth
The grit of shame on my teeth
Boasting chocolate before
Only it's sand now
The desert has lied to me
There is no food
No hope left
A being lacking physicality
Passing aimlessly through the void
Unseen
Most commonly dead
Already reaped
Though
Some can be alive
Forced into solitude
Cast away
The third wheel
Hardly there
Unneeded
A group of friends
Aquaintances
Pushed away
Absorbed within themselves
Life is a Camara
When you are around the people you like you smile
But when you are alone you feel like shit
All the thoughts you hide in the day
Come back and hunt you
Every bad memories come
You try not to cry
But you can't help
You say you are done
But tomorrow comes and you do it all over again.
Can you see my smile
it is fake
it was never real
I wish I could make it real
I try so hard
for it to be real
but I have to be happy
for my smile to be real
I have to have a life
"where can I find one"
is a joke , but it is also ture
it hids the real you .
the real me