And when
our lips crashed,
it's like
the world fast forwarded
and we paused,
not minding
the tic toc
Yes
I left,
but at that very moment,
I wished
you knew how
I earnestly prayed
for you to grab my hand
and pull me unto your chest, begging me
"Please stay"
Boats
Her heart
was the ocean
and he
was a boat
then love
was the captain
who kept it
afloat
When i met you,
you were barely surviving.
a brown and scappy flower,
with crispy leaves is what you were.
But when i saw your leaves falling,
one bye one,
bringing you closer
to your last day on earth,
i made a vow
to provide you with the elements
that one needs to thrive.
2 years,
That's how long i can go without love.
Thanks to my heart,
my lungs and rib cages,
serving as protective layers,
I'm able to store
the love i received from my previous relationships
For whenever I need it.
Like sugar, you continue to be the only thing in my life
that pumps my bloods with adrenaline everytime i consume what you utter.
I just hope that i don't stop
feeling like this....
and that i continue to feel this way
as if I'm stuck in a time loop.
I often ask myself,
am i wilting
because i am past my prime?
or because you did not
give me the one thing
that i need to survive,
even though i begged you
countless times to provide me
with it.
I want to stay with him all the time,
I wanted to hug he and say
"It's okay, you did it right."
I want to read a book with him,
I want to cook for he,
I also want to feel his warm body,
I want to hear his voice,
I want to be the only girl in his mind,
I want to hold his hand,
I want to feel loved too,
I want to stay with him all the time,
But can I get him?
Just because he doesn't exist?
A few days before the new year 2022,
I haven’t felt anything FUN this year,
Not much has changed, I haven’t felt anything.
NOTHING
No one saw me,
No one talked to me,
No one met me,
No one hear me,
No one love me,
No one wants me, not even myself.
Maybe I just grew up a little bit,
Depressed about death and
Ended up loving someone who didn’t exist
Or
Someone who didn’t know I existed, again.
Don't show feelings,
Never react to something,
Don't look them in the eye,
Don't show the suffering,
Never utter a word.
They never think that you are the one,
They're just using you,
For something they don't want to touch.
So just do it,
That's how they show the 'love',
Don't be fool,
You know it from the beginning.
Did you tell them that you wanna die?
Yeah? So do they believe it?
They think it's a joke? right?
HAHAHAH, I knew it,
you you you
thats all it is
and when i act like i dont care
im lying to myself
because it is you i think about
every minute of every day
its you when i cant sleep
its you when i do
when i see the sun set and the clouds turn to beautiful shades of oranges and pinks
its you
its you when i hear a sad song
its you when i see a guitar
its you when i cant think
and when i can i cant
because its always you
when i think of home i think of you
Use me
Abuse me
As long as you love me I'm yours
I'll wait
And I'll crash
As long as you love me I'm yours
I'll cry for you
And try for you
As long as you love me I'm yours
Lately I've been feeling down
About the state we're in
It's a hill I'll try to climb
As long as you love me I'm yours
Eat me up and spit me out
Say you're sad again
Bleed me dry til I run out